love is just a word, until someone comes along and gives it a meaning

2011-02-13T18:49:00.001+08:00

do you let go of what is wrong

or

should you hold on to change?

2011-02-02T12:03:00.003+08:00

i still love you.

despite everything, i'll keep on loving you.
till a long time.

maybe i would forget your name, but i'll never forget a love so deeply imprinted on me.

loving you, for now, to me, is-
praying for your safety, wishing you happiness, hoping you find utmost joy in the world.

i love you.

2011-02-02T11:51:00.000+08:00

i guess you're better someplace else.

i'll leave when the wind blows.

baby you're a firework

2011-01-14T22:43:00.003+08:00

on busy days like these, i try to remember

the way you held my hand
the warmth of your palm
the security i felt
the love we shared.

i wished i could do a lot more than remembering.

for people to know:

2011-01-09T12:59:00.001+08:00

Everyone who doesn’t love is guilty.
That means that anyone who loves, no matter who they love, is guiltless. – Jeremy, You're Beautiful

in trying times, keep trying :D

2011-01-07T15:39:00.003+08:00

i had a good day.

thankyou for letting me smile (:

band performance later, gotta ride!

hahahahah, my first skirt on a bike :D

catch a fallin star and put in your pocket... mia+micheal (:

2011-01-06T22:05:00.003+08:00

wishlist:

1) some time to talk in school.

2) someone to talk to in school.

3) the add maths exercise i left in the bandroom. no one knows how shitty this is and how scared i feel. jeez for god's sake it's just a freakin piece of paper that's gonna be marked by a psychopath that will eat me eat eat nom nom nom.

*sigh*

4) add maths teacher will not acknowledge my existence. i am so pathetic to resort to this. why the hell did i have to take out the paper in band? why oh jeeeez why?

5) the paper will be there. in. the. band. room. on the seat. floor. please oh please let it be there.

6) that homework will be safely in my hands tomorrow and i will remember the ways to work out linear equations. you there reading please don't laugh. not funny. at. all.

7) oh please.

8) that freakin karangan would be very kind and write itself.

9) i will remember to smile. then at least the world will feel better.

10) oh. she's really pretty. (:

i forgot the way to smile.

2011-01-05T18:27:00.002+08:00

c'mon.
school has started.
stop moping around.
try to smile.

at least try to find
happiness.

i picked you over the scary malay karangan (;

2011-01-03T22:31:00.008+08:00

take a look at me so you can see how beautiful you are.

2010-12-28T20:37:00.005+08:00

i remember watching Pride and Prejudice with Wingky two long years ago,

and your face kept appearing in my mind.

i'm quite fond of english movies. with their quaintly predictable storyline, country-like settings, breathtaking sceneries, boy and girl falling in love scheme- well, it's a 'comfort' movie. it makes you wanna believe in happily-ever-after endings. (:

after daily tolls in life, everybody needs that. at least once in a while.

a gift of life.gov.my

2010-12-27T23:29:00.001+08:00

i'm gonna pledge to become an organ donor.

Confidence comes not from always being right but from not fearing to be wrong.

2010-12-27T22:04:00.003+08:00

quoted Peter T. McIntyre.

facebook still scares me.
jeez. i can find out about so many stuff just by scanning through their profiles or photos. ohdear. god.
):

scary ): ): ):

well. enough with the bad. (: (earnestly squeezing up a smile)
The percussion section leader had me practice on the snaredrum today. He had told me before about putting me for snare at the coming form one orientation day event.
Yay :D
okay, after i finish a giddy prayer of thanks, snare (hell-like) drills started. I don't have any complaints, well, at least not much (: haha.
~~(my legs ache from standing, snaring, cycling and balancing etc)~~
~~(my fingers are gonna be deformed soon)~~
~~(mmm. i didn't drink enough water too)~~

it's worth it. all of the hard time, scoldings, pain, sweat, farts(?), lamp, cat, dog, miao... okay yeah i'm gettin carried away. excuse me (:

still, humans, or loud messy-haired weirdos like me--
i need encouragement.
you can't shoot me down with your saliva machine gun, but of course you leave me wounded or scarred.
i won't get killed easily, just tired, dry and exhausted.

again, humans, or those with engine-operated arms and crooked teeth, rarely praise.
shoot me down
have me crawl
extend a hand
just to push me back
again.

i only hope that i'll be able to remind myself that i can choose to be fearless, to encourage oneself.

when people forget to praise you, don't forget to praise yourself.
your body needs it; your mind draws strength from it.

give yourself a clap, a cheer, a reward when you yourself know you excelled.
and when you've done that, try praising others of their good too.
this world(or a certain messy-haired girl) desperately need it.

oh yeah one more thing-

2010-12-26T14:56:00.004+08:00

J,

i am loved by You who takes my breath away and then makes me breathe again by simply making me laugh, listening to my thoughts, clearing my doubts, forgiving my flaws and loving me for who i am.

thankyou (:

you make the flowers bloom and the sun shine in my life.

i love you more than words can express, more than rain can fall, more than the sea loves meeting the shore.

i am forever thankful to have met you, gotten to know you, and later falling in love with you.
because of you, i believe in love.
simple, pure, uncomplicated love.
love that brings joy and peace; laughter and smiles, silences and comfort.

i love you,
honeybunny.

one joy scatters a hundred griefs :D

2010-12-26T13:06:00.003+08:00

hello!
it's post-christmas (:

and even though i haven't had a break since the start of the holidays, i'm really glad i got all kinds of new experiences and made so much more friends during these two busy months. To think about it, band took up almost all of my time. Yeah, from the Penang state competition (band was awarded the gold medal!), to the practices for the CLB concert tour (KL, Johor, Singapore) to the rehearsals and exchanges with other schools-- PHEW. PHEW AND wow every moment felt amazing. (:

I sleep so soundly these days. Either i'm dead tired or just have the rare calm feeling deep inside my chest. Oh, mom mentioned that i sleep with a smile too (:

i'll share a few of my favourite shots:

this tom-skin from super-friendly Hwa Chong Instituition percussionists! for me, it seems like the perfect exchange gift :D

Chinatown. Or Nui Che Shui in mandarin. Cow Car Water? Cow Cart River?
i have no idea. (;
see those pretty lanterns!

me and my percussion family (:
clockwise being:zhendong(papa), ziqing(mama), chinyee(ERRR-section leader), qiaoli(future band prez!) and yours truly :D

see? a different dongzhi experience at a foreign country (:
bliss.

Both Qiaoli and I achieved straight As for our recent PMR exams :D
*cheeeers*

i am so grateful.
i am living the life!

course there's you and me, and all other people, but i don't know why, i can't keep my eyes off you.

2010-12-15T22:18:00.004+08:00

actually.

i just want you to know, you're the best thing that has ever happened to me.
i fall in love with you deeper every time i hear your voice.
i say sorry so much because i hate letting you down, disappointing you.
you mean so much to me.

yes, i know you say small things don't matter, but i guess i just want to be the best of myself for you.

because of you, i want to be so much better.

let me be.

'thankyou.'
it's a word i should say as much as those three words.

thankyou.

go on. continue to leave me breathless and in awe for being the amazing person you are. (:

you make me the luckiest girl ever. hahaha.
and a sentimental one too (;

ohyeah, i made eggs for breakfast with my sister and brother today!
they loved the tomato one even though it was slightly charred.

mmm. i wonder who urged me. hahahaha :D

sticks and stones by jonsi is replaying in my ears

2010-12-15T22:03:00.004+08:00

new layout! (:

well, i came by a website and saw this beautiful scrunched-up-paper blogskin and fell in love with it. thus busied myself with those html stuff :D

the maker is Wicked Icy, a malaysian i think. you can look for her link at the credit page (:

okay, i meant the butter page.

yeah and i got bored and made a formspring account. then left it rotting. only to revive it just a couple of days ago.

so, start bombarding weird questions woohoo!

cycling in the rain results in slippery butts!

2010-12-13T18:31:00.004+08:00

can miles truly separate you from friends...
if you want to be with someone you love,
aren't you already there?

-Richard Bach

(:

please stop saying you're ugly when you're not. it makes you ugly.

2010-12-12T22:13:00.002+08:00

why oh why
do pretty girls
scrunch up their face
post it up on facebook
and caption:
i m so ugly

?

is this some reverse pyschology thing?
to taunt people into abusing the 'like' button?

facebook scares me.

now would be a very good time to hug me.

2010-12-09T22:58:00.002+08:00

i'm still trying.

dawn begins at midnight.

2010-12-09T19:35:00.002+08:00

i want to say 'i love you' so badly ):

but i'm afraid it would be inappropriate or dismissed.

i feel like screaming those three words to you.
screaming sounds harsh though.

i just want to say it out loud.

or even better, i want to show you 'i love you', through actions, not words.

i'm trying.

optimism

2010-12-07T14:03:00.003+08:00

the robbed that smiles,
steals something away from the thief.

-william shakespeare, othello

&yellow is a happy colour. (:

♥

2010-12-02T18:45:00.003+08:00

what type of posts start with an "i love you"?

You're all I live, think and breathe.

(: and i don't want to be greedy, but I have just the urge to hold on to your hand and show the whole world how lucky I am to have someone like you.

i keep replaying you in my head. i guess that's all i'm able to think about these days.

yeah and did you say

if only my eyes were a camera
i would take a thousand pictures
right now

(: hahah, you, my dear, just made me a haiku.

i don't want to be fragile.

2010-11-24T22:06:00.002+08:00

i just don't want to live in a lie.

i want to wake up to reality.

yet, everything seems bleak.

i really really want to know what's on your playlist.

2010-11-22T20:09:00.003+08:00

mhm. i have just discovered this band- Breathe Electric. and, whew, they sound pretty good :DD

how many times can a person say 'i miss you' without sounding fake? ):

i am saving up all my lunch money to reload (: which is so easy to do because I cycle to school everyday now-band practice!- and back home for lunch too.
SO AWESOME. cycling to school, i mean.
though grandma's lunch is also superb haha (:

everything has fallen into place since mom agreed that i could cycle to practice daily. yeah (: My mom has proven to be less sulky(since she doesn't need to wake up at 7am to fetch me to school) and I have earned more of her trust.
I go to school and come back home (like a good, disciplined baby) to keep this trust.
(ohkay, mom has no idea that some of the books i read have steamy sex in it bwahaha.)
(i mean, the title, was a dead giveaway.)
(mistress of the... what? i forgot (; )

o dear. i hope the browser does not lead my mom here.

cycling to school also gives me the extra 5 mins snooze (hahaha) and the healthy work out before breakfast.... and you know what's the best?

MY HAIR IS ALLOWED TO GET MESSY :DDD

yes! my hair (past chin now!) is able to billow freely in the wind than endure sourlooks from other people. but today i tied it up in a scrunchie though because of the stronger wind.

yay. i swore there were doubletakes (;

so if you, my dear unsuspecting reader, happen to glimpse a wind-blowned girl with impossibly red cheeks on a conspicuous red bike , pedaling with a smile on her tan face, zig-zagging through the streets, it would be a big sign that You should pick up cycling today.

cheerios are so good.

we all know fear, but passion makes us fearless.

2010-11-18T12:45:00.004+08:00

quoted paulo coelho.

another meaningful quote that caught my eye,- or my soul?- and i thought that i would share (:

barney thought me that. hahah. jeez, i miss those cheery songs.
but i think when you're fifteen, you won't be interested in the things that appealed to you when you were five.

Quotebook.tumblr.com
-it might just inspire your day (:

ohyeah, and did i mention take up cycling? (;

i'm gonna get a wicked basket and buy breakfast for my folks!

2010-11-10T20:17:00.004+08:00

yes (;

i am an accomplished cycling freak.
and proud of it! :D

achieved destinations:
1. Home (2 main streets)- 20 mins
2. Felicia's(2 main streets)- 10 mins
3. CLB High (3 main streets)-15 mins!! xD

okay. now these get me thinking about cycling on the Penang island, you know, with the ferry fare being a mere RM1.40 along with a scenic ferry ride.
Then tour around Georgetown with it's Unesco sites with Felicia and Wei Hui.

If they Are up to it.

hmmm.

my mom was caught off guard when i told her :" MOM i uh cycled to school and back."

"You WHat?

YES YES YES. i have been doing this consecutively for three times.
oh my the shocked look on her face is glorious.

see? Cycling is great. It surprises life.

I CYCLED HOMEEE TODAY :DD and guess what? My mom was okay with it. (:

2010-11-07T23:13:00.005+08:00

I watched... Mulan and Killers yesterday.
'Up' today.

"I was hiding under your porch because I love you."

If someone, or some dog said that to me, with those killer puppy dog eyes... i would marry the dog. Mmmmmmhm.

i love disney movies. (:

2010-11-06T11:44:00.002+08:00

maybe i should just swallow all my pride
and dial your number
because

you were a drug
long before i realised.

please don't forget me

2010-11-04T23:31:00.003+08:00

Cause I still don't know
How to act
Still finding my ways
Still talk about you
Like it was yesterday

But you're long gone
You moved on
You're long gone and moved on.
-Long Gone and Moved On
The Script is wonderful. I have no idea why, but this song struck a chord in me.

I'm soaked in nostalgia. Happy ones, sad ones or even hellish ones.

Four more days in school next week.

Year 2010, another beautiful collection for my memory.

this made me laugh and love myself

2010-11-04T10:44:00.001+08:00

I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living, It’s a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope. Which is what I do, And that enables you to laugh at life’s realities.

-Dr Seuss

but when he opens his arms, i don't hesitate to go into them

2010-11-02T13:53:00.002+08:00

by me.

sources from www.weheartit.com

okay, i personally prefer Peeta Mellark compared to Gale though (:

the boy with the bread + the girl on fire

2010-11-02T13:22:00.005+08:00

i skipped school and spent my morning doing:

1. tugging my blanket to cover me whole because hell it's still raining
2. decide blanket isn't warm enough and pine for a guy
3. get over with dreaming and change from shorts (brrr) into sweats (much better)
4. unconsciously brushed my teeth
5. give in to breakfast, didn't notice a charsiew pau waiting ):
had coffee + sponge instead
6. start marking mom's student's objective papers
7. happy i finished the whole form fast (okay i admit there are only 100+ people)

8. OBSESS AND DROOL OVER THE HUNGER GAMES ON THE NET

yeah i photoscaped the image on top. nothing belongs to me, photos from weheartit.com

“I must have loved you a lot.”

“You did.” My voice catches and I pretend to cough.

“And did you love me?” he asks.

-THE HUNGER GAMES, SUZANNE COLLINS

"Tough times never last, but tough people do."

2010-11-01T21:08:00.004+08:00

quote by Robert H. Schuller.

hi. to the One who walks around half-naked :
i like the way we finish each other's sentences.

hahaha :D

to everybody out there, go listen to The Script's Science and Faith album.
YUP. (:

gonna check out Taylor Swift's Speak Now too.

smiled loads today (: (: (;
1. Laughed at my cousins wearing my jackets. Found out how teeny their bodies were.
2. My brother and sister were actually Playing together instead of snapping and ripping each other's throat. Heaven, finally.
3. Brother and sister sharing a plate of curry and dipping bread together. AWW. Barney's teachings finally put to good use.
4. Mom said I didn't need to pay for City Of Bones and Mockingjay. Hahaha, hello paycheck.
5. CURRY (: + muichoy + bakchoy
6. Various paus on the table by generous gong gong :DD

7. he called. (:

"So what do I get?"
"A secure future?"

hahahahahaha.

you know, during then, i felt intense warmth even though it was so cold and rainy outside.

kudos to you (:

2010-11-01T15:39:00.001+08:00

i might just buy a back scrubber and get away with it.
(;

still here. still stuck.

2010-10-29T20:39:00.003+08:00

i guess i am prone to doing pointless things.
hmm. Using google map to get directions from my house to your house, very much pointless when i'm car-less, bicycle-less or even just permission-less.

sigh. and all i want is to catch a glimpse of you.

I've never really told anyone a thourough love story of mine. Mainly because I'm afraid of the doubts and disagreement that would surely come pelting at me.

i'm in love with a boy who lives far, far away.

Being a fifteen year old malaysian girl kinda prevents me from meeting this boy due to traditional thinking, high crime rate and bad transportation system.

Still, all my mind thinks about is reaching up to run my hands through his hair and kissing him softly.

i am crazy. more or less. because. there is. no way. this would happen.

i wish and wish and wish. that you'd appear right before my eyes and take my hands to comfort me by untangling the uncomplicatedness.

Yeah. And the whole world knows that wishing never got anyone anywhere.

You ask me to promise you I'd wait. How can I even promise you that when we can't even SEE each other in a span of two years?

you said your life is a lie. little did you know, that statement bled my heart.
i don't want to live a lie. nor have you live one either.

please.

it hurts.

thankyou world for all the encouragement. PMR is SO nailed. (:

2010-10-05T13:27:00.002+08:00

bye bye aku anak timur, kapten hassan and merdeka! squared.
(: yes i will miss you kapten hassan, you have been a great company during wee hours and dark nights.

i am perfectly serious.

haha, you know why?
because my kajian novel notes are so aweeesome. obviously. i made them myself (;

to the form threes of malaysia, keep on conquering and sweating!
mmm, a few months of freedom awaits. (:

(on second thought, i think i have only one month of lalala-ing. ~~damn~~ band.)

I'll be here.

2010-09-28T22:52:00.004+08:00

for a good friend, who's in tears.
(though i doubt he'd ever read this)

"Promise me you'll always remember: you're braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think."

-A.A Milne, Winnie the Pooh.

i wrote this on my science notes, next to photosynthesis (;

2010-09-27T17:11:00.004+08:00

You.

I want to see you play guitar
Hear your strumming loud and clear
Smile as you sing to me
Weaving endless melodies

Long to run my hands through your hair
Whisper secrets in your ear
Thread my fingers with your own
Feel your warmth through my chest

Yet we're separated far apart
Away from each other's beating heart
Ask the stars to sweeten your dreams
Pray that you sleep peacefully

I wait for the grey clouds to part
Because I believe that faith will last
Till I see your guitar again
Do think of me, when it rains.

hello people (;
yes, someone inspired me. now i'm writing poems big time. hahah.
they are beautiful ways are stitching up words to form songs of the heart.
i hope You get inspired.

byee.

the many ways of saying those three little word.

2010-09-27T17:04:00.003+08:00

Hint.

I,

Like knowing that he thinks of me
Often enough to make birds sing
Vivacious blossoms blooming free
Each hummingbird gives me a wink.

Yellow sunshine bathes my skin
Offer me a handful of hints
Up above, a cupid wins.

if you're having second doubts, yes dear, this is for you. (:

goodnight dear.

2010-09-27T00:20:00.002+08:00

"Our love is like the wind... I can't see it, but I sure can feel it."
-Landon, A Walk To Remember.

Another poetic moment (;

2010-09-25T19:21:00.004+08:00

Waiting.

Waiting for the door to open
To see the flowers bloom
Waiting to see your face
Come running where darkness looms

As I sit here, patiently still
My mind wanders to those days
Where we would run up the hill
To listen to the winds of May

I remember the shine in your eyes
Thinking they would make diamonds shy
Your voice weaving tiny white lies
Blinding me with the sparkles of the sky

You said you would come back
With a heart full of commitment and cash
"Wait here by the old dirt track,"
Bring me a bouquet with a sash

I've lost count of missing you
Lingering my gaze upon the stars
Hoping your heart feels a pull
For my love for you is still behind bars.

"i want to knit you a sweater, and you wrap you up in my love."

2010-09-24T23:34:00.006+08:00

yes, that's what made a girl close her eyes with a smile.
and you know what, she slept through the night.

I have no idea why
Your name is stuck in my mind
Said pain heals as time goes by
But my heart can't leave you behind

We've been apart for years
Maybe absence pulls us near
All you letters I treasure
Every goodbye makes me linger

At times my heart ponders
How you took my breath away
What would happen if I'd stayed
Just wished we had a few more days

You are a brilliant boy
Athletic, smart, the envy
I'm just a girl, who's envious
How would we ever, fall in love

Our connection didn't last
But the love didn't die either
Survived the distance, all odds
You burn deep within my heart's core

Hey, if we ever meet again
Maybe I'd step towards you
Or turn my back against this
Pity, fairy tales, don't exist.

a poem i wrote while avoiding pmr model papers. it was some time ago.
just wanted to share a little something with the world. (:

my brother fed me his dougnut. aww (;

2010-09-24T23:11:00.004+08:00

Hah :D just got off the phone with this person with a deep sexy voice.

so matured from his previous jumpy and twitchy one I mistakened him for someone else.

I apologise okay? (: aww. who knew you'd grow up?

hahaha. hey, i meant it in a good way.

this has further proven that Fridays are happy days. I get to sleep in the next day, wake up with the sun actually shining on my face, and go downstairs for a proper breakfast where I can sit and enjoy my tea while flipping through the newspaper. Oh, and chuck scraps to the kitty with a good aim.

go fridays!

Lingering Goodbyes.

2010-09-04T22:15:00.004+08:00

Just elated to know that there are actually people who reads my poor, neglected blog.

Okay, at least there is a someone.

Someone who makes me dig out all the hidden RM1 notes to reload my phone credit because there is no way I'm gonna let go of the red ones.

who knew?

This was supposed to be a happy post. One about a happy conversation with friendly parental invasion, the recent trials, and oh, the highly-anticipated raya party.

Never forgetting The Hunger Games Trilogy by Suzanne Collins.

Hah, this already puts a smile on my face.
I think this is the Hunger Game's phenomenal effect.

Or some left over happiness from the phonecall.

who knows?

(; let me just breathe in deep, and smile.
for once, I will not let the world rob me of my smiles.

happy birthday.

2010-09-04T19:47:00.004+08:00

A good friend of mine celebrated his birthday yesterday.
But I didn't call him, or text him a happy birthday lest leave a message on his facebook.

oh how he must hate me now.
I guess dislike can turn into hate easily, right?

I didn't know how to dial his number without feeling a strange lonely feeling.
If this precedes, our friendship will be over.

This is the part where Penang turns ugly.

Yes, when everybody asks me how Penang is, of course I'll give them their favourite answer, my safest reply.

"Penang? Awesome food I'd never be tired of."

If someone had the sensibility to question this answer, I might have the gall to pour my heart out about Penang.

The Penang who robbed me of my friends.
Idiots for males and sluts for females.

I'm sorry. I know it was harsh and it was based on my own equally unsensible judgement.
Forgive me, I take it back.

Better to find ways to mend a friendship than sit around and sulk.

I admit: It never was sweet ol' Penang's fault.

Thanks for the cendol, still.

proud to be Malaysian ( ;

2010-08-31T11:28:00.003+08:00

Oh yeah, almost forgot:

happy 53th birthday Malaysia!

no you ain't old, don't perasan so much. heh.

proof that I've been awake and conscious this national day:

Satu Malaysia Menjana Transformasi.

early in the morning,

2010-08-31T10:34:00.002+08:00

he called. and surprised me with the news he delivered.

but i said yes.
without any hesitation.

i was surprised by my answer too.

no, i'm not eloping. if that's what you're thinking.

He asked me to fill in a girl for the merdeka parade. She was feeling sick and had threw up. She wanted out.

So he called. While I was reading Shiver even though my eyes were droopy and prostested against this. I stared at the number, a number I didn't recognise but hey, I knew it was you. I always did.

You only needed to ask, and I said sure. Then regretted it the next instant because I knew my mother would be unhappy. Or pissed, depending on how well she'd slept.

Yet I stayed silent. Hopeful. Excitement? Maybe.

Tucked my cellphone next to my pillow so that I'd wake to catch your call.
I remember doing this some time ago. But that's another story.

5.oo am. My eyes fluttered to the ring of my cell. Pushed the button to end the alarm. Feeling amazing and a little stunned that I wasn't a little drowsy though I went to sleep past 12 thirty.
5.09 am. My phone buzzed and your voice greeted me. That polite hello with questions even though you knew it was me at the end of the line.

We made the choice by ourselves. I'd go, despite her current condition was unknown.

I wondered: Were you happier that it was me instead of her?

Turned the shower on and cool water heightened my senses. As I dried myself with the towel, I'd forgotten about my mother. How she'd react to this. Myself involved in the parade.
All I could think was you.

I wonder: strange feelings or just plainly friendship?

Got a call from my transport, said she was waiting for me already.

And then came the fall.

My mother declined. Firmly. Pissed. Annoyed at the disturbance from her precious slumber and the stupid parade.

"No."

Only then I realised you mattered. Band mattered. The stupid parade mattered.

But everything I felt was mixed up, all tiny fragments of you and my growing responsibility towards band.

Still, one thing I found out:

It matters.

laughed.

2010-08-07T14:54:00.003+08:00

school, is a happy place (:
really.
(really often)

haha, well, still went to saturday's kelas ganti although my mom said okay if i didn't want to go.
RARE. like hell. rare.

Reason of going to school?
Double period science!

I know what you're thinking, stuffy labs, boring slideshows with grainy pictures and an equally dull teacher who often needs reminding where'd he stop.

an unknown fact: I actually ~~love~~ my science teacher. SSHH! ahem.
he taught the second final chapter today, uhm, about the sun. yeah, those grainy sun pics weren't so bad, it was interesting. I liked it when all those big aweesome fiery sun pics had a teeny weeny earth beside it, for comparison or size reference. Haha, well it was kinda sarcastic. Towards mother earth.

a week to trials! usher said(or sang): ohhmygawd.

tiger says TTFN. (tatafornow) :D

snow patrol is love (:

2010-07-29T14:56:00.003+08:00

heey little world out there.
how long have i been hiatus?

mmhm. guess it's better if the "mathematically-tortured me" don't count big numbers, my hands and tongue would get tangled up.

hah, so, i've been living the band life.
trust me, it's life-changing.

I'm a girl who doesn't play truant. But i've been cutting all the after recess classes for three consecutive days already. ouch.

i blame band! *points finger*

nah, compared to all those dull classes and teachers who DON'T freakin teach, i'd rather risk my clean (okay, not THAT clean) discipline record for a trip down in the bandroom.

looove all those adorable juniors. HAHAHA, hell yeah they are cute.
*evil senior i am NOT*

still, band might be the best decision i made in my life... if the coming PMR results are not disappointing.

so... yeah i should be OFF STUDYING but still got band at 4pm later.
ironic.

you reading this, if you have ever thought about joining band, don't hesitate, jump in there right now.
(corrupted band full of baddies or sick people and sick minds excluded from this)

yeah, you'll make new friends, bond over the musical notes and smile more.

;D till we meet again.

oh baby i need you now

2010-03-25T21:58:00.003+08:00

okay. you are a major riddle, know that?

One minute you're beside me , teaching me how to doublestroke -with that stern face of yours- and leaving breathless after. you're not a charmer, you don't do special stunts to get a girl's attention, but hey, you've got mine.

Maybe it's the way you're serious in every single thing you do, in every breath you take. Or maybe I like how you're immune to other people's orders, you just make your own rules. (oh yeah, and maybe your biceps have something to do with it. hah.)

again, you're constantly ON THE DRUMS. which makes me go wild. and wow. tingle-worthy.

However, some other times, you act distant. I approach you, in hopes that you'll look at me and smile, or laugh, yet you don't. You'd just give me the cold shoulder, and ignore me.

which sucks. sucks. and sucks.

your voice is electric

2010-02-09T22:43:00.004+08:00

your haircut makes you look even better. and i can't stop looking. everytime I turn around, you're there and I can't help but sneak a glance.

jeez. kinda like your favourite song y'know, automatic. cue the song by tokio hotel.

Stumbled onto persatuan seni this afternoon. Okay, well, got pulled in might be more accurate. Ee wen was mumbling about how lonely she was, and me always be the cliche happy helper, I offered to tag along. NOW i know that those drawings were really DRAWN by Ms Ruhaniyah. and wow. those were pretty awesome drawings.

played with oil and dulex paint and created beautiful batik-like patterns. Had lots of fun. :D

2010-02-07T00:31:00.002+08:00

oh wow i feel SO MUCH BETTER AFTER WRITING DOWN MY THOUGHTS FEELINGS MMHM.

frantic week i've had. How about you?

my cbox is rather lonely, isn't it? :/ eeesh c'mon people where are you?

I got into FRASA. yayaya. it's the state(i think) marching band competition.

yes i'm so happy i'm smiling so W I D E L Y (((((((((:

*does a bunnydance*

the way you roll your eyes the way you taste

2010-02-06T23:55:00.005+08:00

makes it hard for breathing.

well. it has been a year since i've felt this way.

i don't know what has been holding me back. the guy who never gave me an answer or the guilt of breaking his heart? you tell me.

you remind me of someone. Someone stands for people I've known. You're like a mixture of various spices, some different, some new and some I've known before. I like the way you laugh, kinda like a dog y'know, with your tongue (literally) hanging out and rollin'. Haha, yeah, it's a compliment and a damn good one.

I like the way you call my name. It's been ages since

I've heard my name called. Really, most of the times i've either unconsciously slipped on the invisibility cloak or blended into the furniture.

i wishh you could see me. REALLY see me, not just looking.

see the way i stop and stare when you past me by. see the way i catch my breath when you catch my eye. see the way i see you, the way you're beautiful inside.

can't you see? don't you see?

open your eyes,

hey, it's me.

WOAH i wrote a poem. forget the fact it isn't properly alligned (:

all that i'm after is a life full of laughter (;
-a song by chris daughtry

you couldn't have loved me better

2010-01-20T18:29:00.002+08:00

To the six people who died in the dragon-boat incident, I grieve for you.

I don't know you, never ever heard of you, yet when I saw your faces on the daily paper, the pictures of your screaming parents, the photos of your crying friends, I cried. I cried because the lives of an honourable teacher and five outstanding students were drowned, their lives snatched away from them in a matter of minutes by the raging sea.

whatthehellhappened?

life seems so short. I don't know, but I feel like more and more people are dying. The Haiti earthquake? The chaos that's killing people there? The little boy who fell to his death while looking for his mom? Madam Doreen? My grandmother?
why. why?

a life begins. a life ends. all so abruptly.

i don't think i've ever spoken more than a hundred words to ah ma. and yet the photo of me still sits on her tv rack, having been there for so many years, forlorn now the hands that used to fondle it are gone forever.

i'm so sorry.
i hate saying sorry. the more you say it, the more meaningless it becomes.

to all that have passed on, I hope I will have the chance to see you once again, to talk to you, to get to know you. i really hope i do.

thank you.

never say never

2009-12-30T20:44:00.004+08:00

mmm ohkay so people i owe you updates.
there you go: the malaysia world band competition journey
chung ling butterworth high school band.

first day of practice. before hellish days.
1 2 3 4 5 6 seven 8 shit shit concentrate

maestoso. grandly.
tatatata.
judges to please.
dataran something.

terengganu. the land of coconut trees and, still coconut trees.

on the road home, we saw banjaran titiwangsa. it's was around twilight. the clouds blanketed the mountains and the sun dyed it a reddish hue.
sunset. takes my breath away. each and every time. i wish there was a better picture to show you guys.
oh, and at night there were many many stars too. at tasik temenggong. the stars filled the sky, i swear i thought i was going dizzy, but when i rubbed my eyes and look outside the bus window, there were there. millions and zillions of them. i've never ever seen that much of stars, right before my eyes. grammy award moment, trust me. actually, i think that's the nearest-and easiest- to achieve a grammy award moment.
(hinthint future boyfriend do take me there xD )

mmmm. i'll post the kuala lumpur part soon.
yeah, i suck at keeping promises so soon is all you're gonna get.

i wouldn't want any brokenhearts.
I've read an awful lot this week, after being freed from the band dungeon. ooops, i meant band room.

wicked lovely by melissa marr is terribly good.

oh shit my mom's back. gotta run! maths homework, jeez.

sabrina bought a 16 gb ipod nano for 300 ):

2009-12-20T22:24:00.004+08:00

ohhhhh SABRINA thank you so much for mentioning me in your posts and plurk!
ahaha, i feel like a superstar... or maybe even lady GAGA (that's what isabelle said x)

ohkay... mmm i have nothing more to write.

oh wait there's something.
(excuse my invisble punctuations)
I COMPETED IN THE MALAYSIA WORLD BAND COMPETITION!
booyah! *does the hula*

yeah i know it's only the street parade(but hey they closed down jalan ampang for us so it STILL should be considered a big thing BUT *deep breath* WORLD! there's a "world" word in the name and it's an international thingie with south africans leaving their giraffes and capes (cape town maaah right? ;D) and goddamn awesome indonesian and thai percussionists...jeez i could go on forever and ever and ever and... well you get the idea.
or you could always use your imagination (:

Seriously, the Garuda team from Indonesia was goddamn fantastic. and also the one with the red sparkly uniform. and the one with ohwow biggie snares. yes this is country gal goes to big city and meets big guns. or drums would be more accurate. ha.
The Indonesian bands changed my perspective of their country. Really. How many hours and days and nights did they trained and sweat to achieve their greatness that I saw at the drum battle? What did they endure to climb to the heights? Do their blisters hurt when they grip the sticks? Or are they immune to such pain when are blinded by the passion to success, to win, to be the champions of percussion?

I salute to ya'll. The thai too. Great technique and skills. ~~(I especially enjoyed the part where the muscles of the quad players bulged)~~

but at the end of the day, I think the Indos are better. mmm yeah they ROCK. awesome routine and i absolutely loved their variations and crescendoes and decrescendoes... accents... doublestrokes... one word- AWESOME. so freakin awesome. possum.

yes i was starstruck. still am, i think.

psst renie sab loki sama tofu ;D see you tomorrow at ou!

the little things

2009-12-08T00:17:00.003+08:00

oh wow i have a new phone number. it has my school number in it.
(: it has been a happy day. one i hadn't had in days.
i mean a laugh-out-loud-oh-hell-i'm-havin-fun day. mmm.
even though my day ended a few hours ago, I feel nostalgic. I can see myself staring wistfully at the sunset at the field, myself loving the surprisingly absent presence of seriousness, Julie poking me in the ribs and the friendly speckled trombone player.

wow. even though im still STUCK with those freakin cymbals-bah, humbug-, I figured that it's okay. I'm still a junior, and there are many-scratch that, it's only 3-years to come. till then, my beloved snare.

oh yeah since im competing in the malaysia world band competition-whoohoo- i'll be at ipoh and kl.
just so you know (;

forget how to breathe

2009-11-27T23:46:00.006+08:00

did someone call me?
and ahahaha, did my grandmummy picked it up?

Popular added manymanymany many!! books to their shops! yipeee ;D So, Santa-or maybe someone who wants to do good (: during christmas(here's your chance) , here's my wishlist:

1. The Mortal Instruments Series by Cassandra Clare
City of Bones
City of Ashes
City of Glass

2. Mercy Thompson Series by Patricia Briggs
Moon Called
Blood Bound
Iron Kissed
Bone Crossed
actually I once saw Moon Called on the shelves, but I was short of kachings-or, in another way, kiamsiap- so I put it back and bade farewell. The next time I went to the bookstore- it was GONE! *sniffs*

3. Alpha & Omega series also by Patricia Briggs
Cry Wolf
jeez. I SAW this at Popular. It was wrapped, I knew it was in a series, but I didn't know whether was it the first book. It was. );
Hunting Ground

4. Blue Bloods: Revelations by Melissa de La Cruz.
I've WANTED this for, ever.

5. Does Chace Crawford count? Hah, with a face like that, sure thing. hees ;DDD
jenny: why do you care so much?
nate: because.
*kiss*
swooooon <3

omg ohmygod THE VAN ALEN LEGACY IS OUT! i just found out while browsing barnesandnoble. dot com of course. That goes to number 6. wheees

House of Night's Untamed, Hunted and Tempted look really tempting. But Zoey's sluttiness in Chosen was utterly revolting. I'm still taking pills. ~~Weird. This is coming out of the self-acclaimed steamyscenes fan.~~

7. a new pair of drummies. en-ni aah, the one you gave me cracked. can you be sooooo kind and spare me another? *desperate puppy face*

well, that's all for now. Don't worry, I'll keep adding weight to it ;) For all the samaritans out there. Ta. Band practice 'morro.

dreading it. phweeesh.

you make me dance like a fool

2009-11-18T11:46:00.003+08:00

In the end I'm just a really simple girl.

I don't have an active status on plurk, my phone, facebook and blog have their own gravestones, I rarely go on msn, I'm even lazy enough to not charge my ipod.
I know, incredible huh. *okay okay I'll charge it later*

Gosh, I don't even have a new unread paperback with me.

But I'm okay.
(:

To me, it's kinda refreshing. To know that instead of clutching a handphone tweeting, I'm sneaking peeks of Vampire Kisses for the what, umm 3rd time? the good parts only though ha. I survived for what, 3 months without a stable unblinking modem and telephone line-that enables internet access- on a strict diet of cleaning up the dishes, jotting down rants on coloured paper, tuning into Hitz, Fly & Red. Yeah, and by the way I went through the entire English fiction section of my school's library-Lemony Snicket, Jodi Picoult, Meg Cabot, mmm Jane Austen? (;- is defff better than sharing boredom on msn.

Read a book, hug a tree, kiss a girl- it's simple. Simplicity's all you need sometimes.

Just a thought (;

Meet me in the pouring rain

2009-08-01T00:35:00.005+08:00

Kiss me on the sidewalk
Take away the pain

fooooooh. I was so scared that my internet would die on me just now. But when I clicked the start button to shut it down, pwhhhooops! the blogger page magically reappeared!

mmmmmm I was enthralled by The Darkangel. By Meredith Ann Pierce. It's a sci-fi kind of fantasy.

It was awesome. Blew my head off just like that. baBooom!

I usually don't like sci-fi or fantasy and weird world settings in a book(paranormal rocks tho ;), but this book, phwoar, this book is goddamn awesome.
Pardon the language, but I think the monkeys who sit behind me poisoned my use of language. I swore in the ladies today, and all the girls turned and glare at me. Little did I know that that was a veryveryvery crude word. sorry!

I really liked this book. It's about adventures and friggin cool fantasy stuff and fancy words(I had a hard time figuring out the vocab) and sacrifice. That was the main theme in the story. Life is no picnic, doll. You gotta give some in order to get some. But sometimes, you get nothing back. Slave girl Aeriel sets out to avenge her friend/mistress who had the life sucked outta her by the darkangel aka vampyre aka icarus(thank god, i knew this one. Thanks Ms Dorothy for the anthrology texties!). Slave girl is spared by the vampyre because his dozen and one wives aka wraiths need new kirtles aka gowns and gowns need maids. So yeah, Aeriel begins her new life at the icarus's castle, and with help with the friendly neighbourhood duaborough. Or something like that. A dwarf might have been easier, Ms Pierce. My eyes do tend to get a lil blur with hard-to-spell-and-prononce words. hees. oh, and back to tale. Story ain't in her dictionary (:

Aeriel does her job by spinning dresses while listening to the wraiths nag up and down until ~~she gets fed up~~ and agrees to slay the evil vampyre(who is, surprisingly, not your typical sexy bloodsucker) thus departs on the 6 day-months adventure for the apparatus and materials for the destroying-the-villian science project.

She also falls in love unknowingly with you-know-who. Romance is subtle here, pity. Like, seriously, only a teaspoon or less. I was expecting a helllotta hot-smouldering scenes but sadly none came. No matter, I was not disappointed. (even though a lil' smut wouldn't have hurt xD )

I loved the ending. *censored to protect ladylike appearence*, was it a good ending. Caught me off guard and everything. Sacrifice is a big deal.

btw, I found this bombshell in the school library. Finally, a decent book in the school library. My book-drought has ended. And not a penny spent. Oh, and this is the first book in the trilogy which was penned in 1978. or 75. I hate numbers.

tata for now. Band practice-omg!marching!!- awaits.

yes I caught you looking at me and hellyeah i was flattered. and happy too.
song in the shower: sparks fly by Taylor Swift <3

one's still in love but the other one's leavin

2009-07-26T12:00:00.002+08:00

is it really over?
am I really over it?
or am I just shittin' myself?

the last one sounds convincing.

hug a tree,

2009-07-25T23:44:00.003+08:00

they have less issues than people.

sunsets are beautiful. The way the blue mixes with the orange, reds and pink. it's breathtaking.

So for some ahemmm reasons, my mom switched car. From the 40-year-old virgin to the 50-year-old virgin. Okay, lets just say the saga is a tad bit older than me. You do know my maths suck.

Oh yeh, it doesn't have air-cond too. Bummer. Rolled down the windows, stucked our heads out in the highway acting stupid like doing peace signs until mom yelled at us through all the noise honk honk beep beep rude gestures.

It was like being five again when I sat on daddy's lap handing the ticket to the uncle who sat in the toll booth. Or when daddy picked ah bii up to let him slide the 1U ticket into the yellow machine even though there was a huge line behind.

my beh paiseh daddy. i miss you, i miss your smile, and i still shed a tear, every once every while. (:

tumbling rants, filled with randomness. excusez moi ;D

I hate pills. I seriously don't like them. If I'm gonna die, it will probably be about one of the humongous-life-threatening sickly pills that went down the wrong hole and choked me to death. Either that or my chinese teacher heard me talking about her see-through underwear who later then murdered me with a super heavy dictionary. plonk.

how vivid. I still prefer the colouful liquid type. Except the omg-ewww-get-a-way-from-me-monster cough medicine. I'd take pills over that everyday. and yes, I'm suffering from a sore throat and a flu. Very H1N1 eh? xD *sneeeze*

With all the form 3 and 5 seniors gone, our band room does seem bigger and a less crowded. Plus it isn't that humiliating anymore when you're the only one who screwed up bar 15. phweeesh. ~~seniors, begone haha nah just kiddin~~

& i HEART percussion. Everybody is so friendly and huggable =D
my favourite is still the snare-SWOOOON- and today I also fell in love with castanets!

clickerklaterclicklaterclackclack <3 Malaguena is such a great score. and so easy! oh yeah anddd guiro! the sound it makes zweeeeeeep zweeeeeeep zwiiiiiiiiit zwiiiiiit makes me laugh.

randomfact: my favourite piece is Freedom Forever-what a stupid title, like Kapten Hassan- because teeee heeee i get the drumset and i LOVE clanging the cymbals!

:D buh bye. do come back.

there goes the sun, and it's alright (:

She'd be home.

2009-07-22T22:52:00.005+08:00

I love book fairs.
I would seriously sleep with 'em.

So, I was weirded out when my granpap called me and shouted these:
"Book fair ah! Eeeng wen shee!Lei tai ah!" over the severely crackled phone. And shocked to the core when I arrived at Carrefour to see a sign reading "BOOK FAIR LAST DAY RM5".

whoah whoa. Okay. I'm in Penang, which also means this place has no sufficiently stuffed English bookstore whatsover, and this thing lands so neatly in my way? In Carrefour? Don't they only sell cheese and baguettes?
oh yah, their potato bread's awesome btw (:

I'm still thanking my lucky stars, if you were wondering. These books quenched my thirst since I left Queensbay's Borders. And they were all going for only- RM5!

*does the dance of the dying then reincarnated cockroach hula hula*

thankyouthankyouthankyou iloveyou carrefoursbookfairorganiser whoever you are =D

My family lingered there, the small corner surrounded by supermarket stuff, picking up and leafing through books. Lots and lots of them. The scent of a book is so wonderful. It calms me down, the papery-smell, rolls and rolls of parchment. mmmm. Anyone with me hees?

My little brother endorsed in a picture book filled with colourful trucks, sister's imagination flying with fairies, and mommy laughing quietly over a "How to be a Better Mom" title. I feel the strong warmth and happy glow, of having a good book in your hands. It makes glad to see such a lovely scene.

oh god. how sappy can I get? god. i might as well start belting out Barney's ending theme on the top of my lungs.

So. I bought The Last Summer(of you and me) by Ann Brashares, Laguna Cove by Alyson Noel, Princess Diaries by Meg Cabot and Tallulah Falls. I've finished Princess- hilarious, Cabot's witty humour had me in stitches- and Laguna Cove- huh. Nothing really special- and Tallulah Falls. The beginning of The Last Summer was a real bore so I put it off. Might pick it up after the Undead series.

Tallulah Falls by Christine Fletcher. A surprise. A winner.

I figured that I had it with flimsy, non-insightful girlies, so I wanted to get real.
And Tallulah Falls gave me that. It gave me real.
What caught my eye amongst the pile of books was its beautiful cover. The cover took my breath away. It has been ages, ages since I come across such a beautiful cover. The girl and the dog, they looked so serene, so peaceful. So faraway. If it hadn't been for the gorgeous cover, I would have put it down and moved on to yet another girl-meets-boy stereotype.

After meeting Maeve, a 21-year-old bipolar, Debbie Badowski dyes her hair, gets a tattoo and changes her name to Tallulah Addy. Tallulah leaves Oregon impulsively in search of Maeve, after getting a frantic phonecall from her. Never did she know she'll end up broke and stranded in rural Tennessee, and that rescuing a dog lands her a job in the local vet's office. Whooh. Tallulah's relationship with Dr. Poteet, the grim vet with a sorrowful past, motherly Ruth who she stays with and her co-worker, the tall and lean Kyle-whom she may or may not have feelings for- is so real they walk off the page. The plot is deep and engaging, and the setting, Tennessee
is vividly realistic. Tallulah Falls is a story wonderfully written, honest and painful, of a stubborn yet strong girl, overcoming all the storms in her journey to find herself.

Blew me away. Best book I've read this year.

'They were just wildflowers, the same ones Tallulah had seen choking the ditches, dotting the unmoved strips of grass. But Kyle's bouquet held two dozen at least, with three, four, five ... eight different kinds of blooms, all in the bright loudmouth colors she loved.' -Tallulah Falls by Christine Fletcher
An excerpt.

PS Just so you know, I went back to the book fair last Sat. Turns out the sign saying "LAST DAY" was a real fake. I bet it's still hanging there if there are still book left. The prices had dropped to RM3. Grabbed Emil and Karl, Undead and Unemployed by MaryJanice Davidson and one more. I forgot the name. Don't worry, it ain't sex manual ;D

life is a maze and love is a riddle

2009-07-10T01:18:00.002+08:00

You Belong With Me by Taylor is a nice vid. Sweet, predictable happily-ever-afters, something everyone wants.

I'd always loved Science classes. I mean, going to the science lab is the greatest. You can enjoy munching on Rockies and chat the ~~day~~ period away with your also chatty friends, catch up on homework or just relax. Usually that means having a lil' nap in the dark, cosy science lab. mmmm.

Too bad I don't have anyone to snuggle with.
): phwooee

haha. Well, I'm glad I aced in my recent exams. Guess that after the pain has gone, you do get back normal. Normal with some deeply-appreciated scoring superpowers (:

School's still the same ol' loony bin, no different from here and there, cranky teachers and murderous peers. The discipline teacher forced me to get a fringe. Ran into the toilet stalls and had a small sob. I dislike change.

Just so you know, I pushed the fringe outta my ~~face~~ forehead, and yeah worked around it. Accepted it, got used to it, and moved on.

A smile shines again on my face.

Still gotta mention this though, things get a little different after mid-year.
You get along better with your seatmate, the monkeys behind you, the girls in your class, the crazy boys, the teachers know your name, and even though the cute guy in class still has not said a word to you, you catch his eye once in a while.

Enough to have you quit lingering in the past and move on. Go on.

Giggles and whispers with the gals, hooting and screaming with the guys, life does seems okay.

This Saturday is a public holiday. Finally a Saturday which I don't need to wake up early to. Band practice, cancelled.
Woots! ;D

Drumming. I think I'm serious. (= yay. I have reached my calling LOL where did THAT came from??

tata for now hees :DDD

please don't leave me

2009-06-25T00:27:00.004+08:00

hey (=
thanks to alllll the lovely peeps who wished me a hap hap hap happy birthday. I was really happy hees ;D thanks.

Especially to the tofu. So sweet lahh you. ;) thankyouu
*hugggggle tofu* aiya haven't reply, paiseh.

& to my beloved sister Ning,
happy birthday! (don't mind me, the belated ran away!)
missing you seriously, eeeeeeeee! take care ya :D

i miss callin' "daddy".

I haven't seen you for 8 months. Days go by but nothing made me stop thinking and missing you every day.

happy father's day.
I'm waiting for the day it comes.

you're all choked up and i'm okay

2009-06-13T23:33:00.005+08:00

happy birthday WEN YU!
(= hahahaha wow im seriously impressed that you STILL regconize my voice.
partayyyy safe ya. don't do what I would ;D

mmmmmm watched a hell lotta movies and emptied a hell lotta more pints of ice-creams.
oh god. my belllyy. not funny.

Watched Terminator. Much better than I expected. Good action scenes, good lines and good lookers. Yeah, and I thought that the story's content was well done.

(: Sam Worthington aka Marcus Wright in the movie

spoiler alert. don't say that I didnt warn you.

ahhhhhh. He was cut-out for the job terminator.
terminator face? check.
terminator muscles? check.
terminator height? check! (6'2-as in, 188cm)
terminator quotes? check check.
terminator sexiness? hell check!!

"let me down."
"if i let you down, you'll kil everyone in this room."
"just you, connor."

so hot can die. weeesh.

&& he looked reallllly familiar plus had a thick accent. Turns out he was ~~the jackass~~ in the movie "Rogue".

oh yeah, Kyle Reese was cute too.

Anton Yelchin. Another star to look out for.

BUT guess what? My sister actually said this:
"I like John Connor."

-then turned a deep shade of pink after mom and I burst out laughing.
not that i'm against christian bale or anything, no. but you really should have seen the look in her face, she was in awe.

you like old men?*mock aghast*
NO!
well then, ahem, john connor?
i MEANT the character!
oh. ohhhhhhhhkay.*smirk smirk*

oh wellll. maybe Charmaine has a thing for men with big guns.

okay, now I've things to clear.

I'm sorry if I'd hurt you. I didn't mean to. I never knew that it would cut right through you. I had assume with her by your side, you would have gotten over it. Way over it.
I thought wrong.

It's okay that you didn't tell me. I didn't need all that awkwardness too(even though I seriously doubt that). And yes, what's wrong with being friends? Why are you questioning that? You think I would make some dramatic exit of a pyscho ex? Um. Not my way of doing things. ~~(that you ask Ming Zhao. he'd be happy I assure you)~~

Did you read toooo much fiction? YA overdose? Cause I'm reality.

I'm serious, really. Warts and all.
You know you're over it. Maybe a few scratched scars, but it will be fine. Must be fine by now right? Awww, c'mon! Get your butt off the ground and entwined your fingers with hers! Hurry!

Ohyeah, anyone heard the song "Don't Trust Me" by 3OH!3? Catchy but naughty. Like, very, very dirty. it's no surprise-Daughtry pun intended- I like it. heh.

pooo. back to slaving over the stupid kesihatan folio. yup, it's way past working time but that's the way I roll.
(= hugs.

trivia: lil bro alson pronounces terminator- termitator. ohsocute.

a damn messy post. hope ya'll don't mind =D

2009-05-30T14:22:00.010+08:00

300509
hey. im alive.
Nope, I wasn't the one who was in the blaring ambulance being carted off to ER.

I'm tired. Exams have successfully squeeze the life outta me.
(pssst CHS-ians! went the goin gets tough, the tough gets goin! Good luck for ya mid-terms! ~~mwahahaha mine's over boo you~~)

oh. I guess I'll just rant out my emotions feelings etc.

You were the best English teacher. Cool, fun and entertaining. Thanks for marking my papers. You allowed me to have my say in it, unfold my potential in writing. I've still tresure them in my files. (I swear I won't use swear words again!) You'll be okay, Mdm Doreen. Soon enough you'll be fit to shout to those noisy students in your loud, booming voice.

Good luck with your new girl. Don't make the same mistakes as I did.

Why oh why do you have to confuse me? Act all happy and funny when you're hiding something beneath. Stop it. Let it go.
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oh. I currently have 11 drafts. andyeah, this is one of 'em.
I just, blog a little, then a butterfly comes and I running after it, and my post goes becomes a draft. Bullshit I know, but hellyeah I'm easily distracted. Not the omg-it's-Pn.Cheam-run! kind of distracted or in a way, alerted, -okay, I'm starting to go yabbayabba- but you DO get the idea, right?

So. I did a quick round of my pals' blogs, and ohhelllllllyes I'm so damn happy that midterms are over and, thanks for reminding me sis Ning, B-day is near!

nyehehehe yup im hinting y'all homosapiens out there (x

shoutout to my budddddies :D

tofu omg you should be in penang now, like freakin here right?? I'm so sorry I didn't call you earlier cuz my phone's batts are dead(also practically everything in between in case you haven't notice) and I CAN'T REACH YOU!! i mean, 010? are you sure this number exists?

veronica ooooookay. about your letter. lost in the mail, i suppose?
i'll get back to you.

criminal mastermind your letter. uh-huh. the postpeople felt the bomb in the letter and confiscated it. yes my grandad bailed me out.

pining-for-the-girl-who-has-emigrated guy sorry. I was watching movies the time you called and yeah, my phone blacked out. i'll call.

zining 14 days & counting!! ;D ;D ;D

aidou any juicy updates? teehee will try to catch you on msn! =D

loki oh great. everybody in the percussion section nows HOW to doublestroke except me. oh great fuh-reakin great. teach me. Please?

renie woah. braces and bikini? hahaha, see? Told ya you are a model-in-makin';)

Went to a super todayyyy. People here call supermarket-super. suuuuuuuuuUPER. hahaha.
My grandma loves going to the super. Also my aunt. Oh yeah, and add in my mom. Plus the under six set. Then I have to tag along. weesh.

my family was going nuts over a crazy stock clearance and I happened to stumble by the clothes section. Guess what did I find?

dadadadadeeedaaa! a very very adorable top.
for- RM 8.00.

details details! it's a in-your-face red and splattered with a cool font that reads "breathtaking". will go perfectly with:

&

I'm also on the lookout for:

(= biker jackets

(= hoodies (can't seem to find a perfect one that really does fit nicely at the shoulders)

(= chucks. always cute.

2009-05-03T14:34:00.003+08:00

Eunice ahh eunice... my blog is not even half dead, it's DEAD.
The zombie kind, though. Undead.
facebook dead, nuffnang dead, plurk dead, letters also dead. omg exams, so gonna BE dead.

Resident Evil dead-isshh!
*Zombie with icky tongue hanging out*
Use your imagination ;D
Okay, Imma a little too scared to put a zombie picture here. Must be the Deja Vu my mom and I watched yesterday. Great movie-too bad I missed the explosion at the beginning-, awesome plot but, deja vu gives me heebie jeebies. Eeeesh.

Oh yeah, remember the last post, messy scribbles and all? I left in a great hurry for tuition, didn't I?

I went to the centre, hopped off the car, and went up the flight up stairs.
Only to find that tuition had been cancelled.

I know, major dotdotdot moment.

Whattodo? Sigh, I was daydreaming in class, kays?

Went back downstairs but my grandad had already driven off.

Whattodo, again? Sigh, walk home.

My house wasn't far, two or three blocks away only methinks, and I had been walking a lot lately with Fels, exploring my neighbourhood y'know? so yeahlah, balik rumah jalan kaki.

The only drawback was it already was kind of dark and in case you haven't notice, I'm a girl :D . Therefore had to be careful or risk being chopped into whoknowshowmany pieces. *shiver*

I got home safely, thanks.

Friday, Labour Day...mmm, considered a while getting bangs and another ear-piercing, but shrugged off the thought later. A wedding dinner was on the schedule, was flipping through my rather limited-space ~~closet~~ box when my oh-so-stylish aunt came to my rescue.

Aunt. Thrusts zebra print top at me. Runs away.

here's a picture :D

And, I shall stop here. I'd probably continue on scribbling on a next post and be stopped by my mom saying-no, not saying- ahem, SCREECHING:

"YOU NOTHING TO DO AH?? HAR? SO FREE? GO DO YOUR HOMEWORK LAH!! GO STUDYYYYY!"

.

2009-04-30T18:55:00.003+08:00

okay. I ~~neglected~~ my blog. This month, especially.
I'm sorry )=

Honestly. I just didn't feel like sharing. It was like I was the kid in the park who got the biggest scoop of of ice-cream and I didn't want to share with the other kiddies.

Must be the pig flu.

*laughs*

Sorry yeah, folks.

My blog's getting duller and duller each day, yet I find the things in my life getting brighter. Seriously.

#1 My fab friends. Friend, for this photo. This is Felicia ans she believes in splurging on food and MNG. Love her.

#2 omg ketua disiplin called. *guffaws* FYI Everytime he calls, I'll always be in the car AND when I call, he too would be heading to somewhere in vehicle. He told me that currently he's into reading. Novels. Whoa. Like finally I influence him in something good rather than dying his brain yellow.

pssssst bitch alert bitch alert!! (remember HLVs?)

ummmmmmm I have tuition I really gotta go but I be back soon to complete this.

"You make me sick" quote tofu :)

2009-04-14T23:08:00.006+08:00

Experienced a nosebleed just now(the 2nd in my life, refer old posts for the 1st xD). I seriously think that my school canteen has something to do with that. Either that or I'm paranoid.
Yes, I know you there in front of the comp picked paranoid.

But it's just so weird when I ate a bowl of wantan mee, I had a tummy ache later that night. The oh-so-stubborn me still couldn't resist the yummy wantan mee the next day, so yeah I came home with yet another achy ~~breaky~~ tummy. Haha, seems that the only "safe" food for me are nasi lemak and laksa at the canteen.

I could live with that.
Okay well, maybe not.

imissCHS's nuggets. And french fries. Burger. Roti canai. UWAAAAAAAHS.
*depressed*
~~who the hell dares complain about CHS's food? ROAR.~~

Endured a hellish period at bengkel, again.
My teacher tore up my sketches of my reka bentuk projek because I used a freakin ruler to draw 'em.
Jeezes, woman.
I wasn't even sad or angry. In fact, I was amused.
Do I need to tell you, my dear Cik/Pn. Tan Sie Peng, that you looked like a utter madwoman when you tore up my beloved sketches? And, trust me, that is SO not a good look. By the way, your outfit sucked so bad too.
Moreover, your ahem ahem, behaviour didn't win you brownie points with motha ~~f*ckin~~ earth either. Waste paper lahh you.

Yeh, I'm pissed. But just a lil'=D

So, conclusion is: KH teachers are crazy. But I forgive them due to those awful tingtinktongtonk sounds they suffer in the bengkels. Poor souls.

Lotta pichas the next post! susssspense xDD

hiiiiyaaah!

2009-04-09T22:08:00.004+08:00

mmmmmmmmmm first things first
Happpy Birthday Renie <3

seems like I know a lot April babies... Afifah's on Saturday and Yung Hyung's on Monday(we're gonna celebrate theirs together on Sunday at Sunway)and Krystal's...

happy birthday y'all
have fun =D

Went for band practice this morning...yawn. This time I didnt arrive late. Yay me :D
Was gonna practice my drum solo on the snare(my favourite xD- I seriously hope I pass my exams and get that spot) when the conducter came and 'tutti-ed' us.

Eh. I scrrrrewed up on the big big drum again. I think it's called a base drum or someeething.

oh well. "practice looooh ben dan!"-that's what my aheeem, "senior" said(she's the same age as me and also a hell lotta shorter than me *guffaws* yet she INSISTS being called senior). Haha, loveee her Ennnn.

oh and FYI(this message is directed indirectly at the eva-ahmazing Loki-sama) my fellow transfer friend-the one from Sabah-, she HAS a drum set.

*glee*

LOL okay it's real random.
sorry :)

Kesihatan project's undone, ah jeez, signing off now.
Stay happy! ;D

pssst miku! I reckon he's obsessed with ya xD

Liquid LOVE

2009-04-04T20:28:00.003+08:00

My liquid was taken away by the discipline master.
F*ck you.

I love my liquid. I freakin loved it. And you took it away from me.
When I get my liquid back, it's so going up your ass, you asshole.

GIMME BACK MY LIQUID!
roooooar.

Those who know me, y'guys know I treasure my liquid very much, right? And now, it's taken. Jeez, what's with the damn school rules anyway? No liquid? God, really. What kind of sick rule is that?

Damn. I want my liquid back.

Everytime I reach into my pencil box and find that it's not there, it kinda-okay, weirdly-hurts.
And I SO do not like crossing, or correction-taping, or placing a sticker on the wrong answer.

gimmmme back my liquid, damn you, sir goh!
i effin demand you!

yeeeeee yeeeeeer... So many projects to be done here.
Kesihatan... ehm, KH... Sejarah too methinks.
Aiya, I'll just chuck it to the back of my mind and pretend I don't know a single thing about those freakin projects.
Sounds convincing, no? ;D

oooooh the popcorn's poppin, Marley and Me awaits! toodle-o~

Listen to the thunder

2009-04-03T22:24:00.003+08:00

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Rained heeeeavily, like real hard rain, yesterday and today.
Everybody got wet ~~and sexy~~.
Seriously, my school actually flooded-like, okay, mini-flood, but still LAAH aight?- and the water(it kinda smelt like sea water) was up to my ankles.
Winds were gushing, papers were flyin, students were mock-screamin and me, sitting by the door, kepo-ly stuck my head out.
The trees were swaying and it leaves was desperately hangin on.
Damn, what a rain.
Pulled my head back in and realised that my hair had gone beserk.
Eckk.
It's nice when it rains. Haha, the teachers don't feel like teaching anymore(and my pregnant teacher had became un-pregnant so yah, she was on maternity leave therefore a young guy was replacing her) so the students were running around, laughing.
Made me reminisce about those showers at CHS.
aaah.
Most students had umbrellas there at CHS cuz it rained frequently but it doesnt rain much here at the pearl of the orient(Yeh, you sweat a whole lot here). Heavy rain meant coming to school in slippers the next day, hah.
(well, angku said those who came wearing slippers were demerit'd. LOL)

Oh, and another thing. Either it was your family coming to your rescue with a umbrella or your significant other shielding you from the rain with, um, various things eg. newspaper, jacket, huge leaves... =)

I was excluded. Obviously. Eh.

Nah, it's okay. Just a teeeeeny disappointed. (hah, like I have to the right to be)

My bandmates were right behind me(even though I didnt know that until they arrived at the bus stop, drenched). We joked about being tough and fearless in the rain, heehs.

Let there be a someone waiting for me with a umbrella ~~or some other rain-shielding object xD~~ when it rains next time, yeah? ;)

"i love walking in the rain because no one knows i'm cryin"

i'm in love with my own sins

2009-03-30T21:01:00.011+08:00

ello people =)

I suck at updating. Soooorry yeahs ;D Pardon my laziness.

Here are some leftover photos taken during the hols hahs.

Me and Felicia ;D ;D

From left, ~~Her Highess~~Moi, Yung Hyung(psst her maths 100% 8D), Afifah the kucing lover, Felicia the Lady Gaga hater LOLs and Yunni whom I ~~sometimes~~ always copy her homework heehs. We went to Sunway ~~Lagoon~~ Carnival, a local mall. Apparently, after watching Race to Witch Mountain we fell in love with the guy alien and couldnt resist taking a photo hehs.

Yes they caught my sampat-ness. How unfortunate ehs? xP

My first venture into Starbucks(I know I'm ulu, dont remind me). Felicia shared her green tea thingy with me. Sadly, it wasn't as groundbreaking or woah-ing as I expected for starbucks coffee. Boos. I wanted the frappucino but my pocket had a wide hole in it. Sigh. You do notice my usual bwahaha facial expression gone in the pic, don't you? Hahs, anyone care to belanja me? ~~im veryvery kiamsiap dees~~

My bestie Sabrina =D loveee her so

Never seen such a poised tofu. Laughs =D She saw the camera aiming and was set for everything.

Future model-eventhough she won't admit it xD- Renie.

Earth Hour was fun. I switched off all the lights ~~like a good girl~~. Okayy, well, except the tv. Watched the Prince of Egypt. Love the songs. The band's junior ensemble gonna play the score. Yay ;D

eeesh. Stupid comp class tommorow. Mom's screaming, I've hit curfew. chompchomp!

Being loved;

2009-03-18T21:49:00.003+08:00

You remind me strongly of this song.
She Will Be Loved by Maroon 5.

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I broke your heart again and again. I'm sorry.

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times
But somehow I want more

I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile

Words could never express the way I want to thank you.

And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Yes, she is loved.

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
You make me feel beautiful without doing anything.

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door's always open
You come anytime you want
Compromise. You.

I know where you hide alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls, yeah
You pull me up to my feet, each and every time.

I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile

And she will be loved

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

I never want to say goodbye.

You spin my head right round

2009-03-18T20:55:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry.

I won't deny that I had a good time with my friends. My primary school buddies. They are my friends too, best friends in this case. Yes, you probaby do realise I have quite a number of best friends, and yeah, I'm happy to have them in my life. The June you see wouldn't be the same without them.
I said sorry and I meant it. I'm sorry that I let you down and behaved like a bitch. Yet do remember that the world does not revolve around you and your ships do not get to sail everyday. There will be disappointments and misundertandings, but we can overcome them if you just let the past be and embrace the future.

You once said that I the way I treat you changed after that incident. Of course I did. I questioned the trust I gave you. You whispered my secret to another. You apologized profusely and I forgave you and forgot about the bad days and hugged you. All I ask of you now is to do the same.

Our friendship was a rocky, on-and-off one from the start. There were fights, quarrels, and cold shoulders of all kinds. But really, the day always came when either one of us would go over to one another and sit down and start talking like nothing ever came between us.

But now I can't go to your place and share a sit with you-with a lot of people too, for that matter-now that both of us are far apart. I really hope this friendship will rekindle and we'll be dissing bad books-and boys- again someday.

Forgive me?

I wanna hold'em like they do in Texas Plays

2009-03-14T13:34:00.008+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Exams are OVER. So FREAKIN over.

and that means no more

Remembering lame Perjanjian Inggeris-Belandas... Agrarias... J.W.W bitches xD

Making schedules that you don't follow...

Instead you get back to

Taking pictures of Cupcake(a street cat I kinda got close too x)

Messing up and teasing your hair...

You people do know that I get bored fast right? Like, umm, very fast.
haha =)

Two papers were returned yesterday.
*drumrollllllllll*
I passed KH! omg I passed.
~~*does the stupid warrior-slash-booyah dance*~~

psst the passing mark at Chung Ling is 60%, surprise suprise.
Jeez, high expectations. It made my friend cry.

Eventhough it's stricter here and all-damn the short hair and no-bringing-tissue-papers rule- people REALLY take it easy here. wayyyyy EASY.
Seeing that the paper has a scrawled 33% on the upper right corner, they just crumple the paper and throw it into their bag. And GET OVER it.
haha, though angku informs me they would need to iron their papers to do the corrections.
Love that attitude.
;D

&& to that certain person who keeps apologizing, if you dont stop-apologizing, I mean-, you bet that I won't pick up your calls.

Felicia, I like singing along to Poker Face because it annoys you. Sue me.

angku tao ;)

2009-03-08T01:01:00.006+08:00

Hehs, a picture of me and Chee Ying aka ang ku(a type of pau in pink) who sits besides me in school.
whees. Besties =)
Both of us love drawing and poetry(english me chinese her) ~~and boys too~~ so yeah, we rock together. We also happen to sit at the most eye-catching place in the class(far right-exactly the same spot where I first sat at in 1A3 'cept the fact I'm sit out). She swears a lot. A hell lot more than anyone I've ever known. xD

From left Chee Ying-hidden(screen wayyyy too small for four serial pontengers)- LavigneLavigne(EuniceHamdai-don't fight- remember?!), Chen Xin(sits in front of me) and Chia Min aka tweetybirdie ;D.

Yay angku. Tweaked the camera a lil bit and our four heads finally managed to squeeze into the tiny little frame.
-we were camwhoring in the science lab in broad daylight. Everyone was so intrigue by what, the cow's eye. Eww.

Thanks, Captain!

2009-03-06T09:52:00.003+08:00

~~wow.~~ I've never experience the feeling about loving a guy until I met you. You changed my perspective about guys. Before you- lame losers who cuss all day. With you- guys actually care a lot. After you- ~~Animals~~Someone you might fall head over heels with.

I don't know if you know this, but, I really loved you.
okay okay okay, I know you do. Yes, you who's smiling a wee bit sadly =)

Text you a goodnight message every night ~~so you know he's thinking about you~~.
Calls back even though the line keeps cutting you off.
Says the sweetest things.
Would offer the space under his bed for you.
Would laugh when you say stupid things.
~~Doesn't get sarcasm.~~

He's awesome.
(admit it, your boyfriend isn't this awesome.)
(and trust me, I'm the worst girlfriend ever.)
(ever.)
(should have been a guy.)
(really.)

He understands your every thought, every rant, every screamoffrustration.
Stands the pickiest(and I MEAN pickiest) girl.
Cares.
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love,
You can.'

~~I know. Did I mention the awesome part?~~

Thanks for the love you gave. Thanks for all you shared. Thanks for getting rid of my loneliness. Thanks for being there ~~comforter~~, a shoulder to cry on. Thanks for giving me a taste of what I didn't have. Thanks for everything. Thanks for all.

I love you. Y'know I always will.
=)

Don't sell your heart

2009-03-01T14:34:00.003+08:00

Hello =) Changed my blogskin because the previous one kisiao-ed-also known as bandwidth exceeded- and I don't really have the time right now to get a new blogskin so yeah, this shall replace it. For now.

Oh and exams are looming near. Gotta score this time really for the Nokia XpressMusic I'm aiming for. 300 on mom and 400 plus As on me. Screw up and my dream kaput.

Therefore, I won't be blogging much and I guess you guys out there will also be cramming useless facts into our poor tiny brains so good luck on not bombing your texties(it's not their fault, it's the kerajaan's stupid damn fault really).

booyahs ;D

idontcarewhattheysay I'm in love with you

2009-02-26T00:37:00.005+08:00

okayyy IF my mom wakes up I will be so DEAD.
Screeeewed. Grilled. Barbequed.
yeah you get the idea.
Exam's like in 14 hours and I'm sitting here in front of the comp.
wheeesh please DON'T tell my mom or do equally lame as in getting me into something that spells trouble.

So, EUNICE iloveyoulikewhathell it's okay I know everyone is super busy. Including the idea of me.
Yeah, my mom prefers me being busy but sadly my butt does not.
anyways, I'm gonna send you stamps wait up!

JEAN thankyousomuch for the once-in-a-lifetime kindly words.

JUSTIN wow you should eat as much as you jump.
I'm just saying ;)

im so SCARED of me mom comin up and I dunno eat me or something. BOO.
guilty but NOT guilty enough to stop.

I'm looking forward to the upcoming hols. Desperately need a getaway from mosquitos and fa-la-does (meaning Band practice ;D)
nya heh hehs... I'm just gonna go for two practices for the full week practice.

tadaa~ Sucessfully logged on without getting caught. YET.

-
I like waiting for the postman to come around delivering letters. Heehs, that's me.

imissyou so much so FREAKIN much it aches. And I never felt this way before. First crush, now a little too not over you. Arculeta's got some nerve.

I laid under the blue sky on my school field yesterday after running 400m. Whoa, the adrenaline rush, the pumping heart, slamming down onto the ground, it was... GREAT.
And the sky, wow, it was so, SO beautiful. ~~'Perfect make-out spot'-J~~
Penang skies are really wonderful. Maybe it's the beach or the strong wind or just maybe the weird yet strangely suitable coconut trees that grow outta nowhere. Seriously. You could walk and suddenly bump into one.

Gotta go. Big-or more like, seriously scary-day tomorrow for CLB form 2 transfer student 9807-my school number(people here, take numbers wayyyy to seriously).
Take care, peeps!

psst wow im still breathing. where's my mom anyway? xD

Where'd You Go

2009-02-21T21:33:00.003+08:00

I miss KL. I never thought that it would be so hard that I'd wake up with my pillow wet with tears. Friends? Yeah, I have friends here but it's not the same. And I don't know whether it will be the same again.
Things change. One second she's your best friends who writes you a beautiful farewell letter the next one she's ignoring your mails.
I'm scared. I'm afraid that if she says "I can't come cuz I have duty or some other activity...". I will just go into pieces.
He doesn't know you're sad like he did. He always did ask with that hilarious face of his.
Confusion floods my mind.
I don't know how's he doing right now in KL? Is he sick? Will anyone celebrate his birthday? I miss you p.
I need my own room.
I want to buy books.
I want to watch the gold coloured sky outside my window.
I want my life back.

You're standing there

2009-02-14T21:50:00.003+08:00

Just a shoutout to all those single ladies&men, and ~~fine fine~~ lovebirds:
Happy Valentines Day! Cherish your love ones, and love them more each and everyday. (=

iloveyou all my loyal readers. Yes yes I do.
I'm so sorry for not updating more frequently )=

mmm... so, Valentines.
To me, this celebration is more like a 'friendship' day this year. No chocolates and pressies . Just the love we friends share.
I had a lot of fun and realised how lucky and blessed I'm to have them in my life. You guys, my friends, really helped mend the little holes in my heart and too warmed it with all your laughter and care that I appreciate greatly.
Thanks ;D

Merentas Desa. Oh yeah, I got placed in Biru -AGAIN yeesh!- in this school. I'm musta have a REAL connection with blue t-shirts and track stars.

~~but me thinks high jump is sexier.~~

shutupshutupshutup! excuse me. xD
After the marathon, Felicia said "Kia, hokkien mee." She whisked me off to the other side of the apartment that was on the opposite of Chung Ling, and I arrived in a another world.
Woah woah woah.
Students were rushing around, some hopping on buses, others having rojak on the roadside, bicycle bells ringing... cling cling cling...
We went into a, I seriously dont know what kind of shop, cuz it's goods range from books, colour papers, pens to make up, valentine goodies and sweet treats. Oh yeah, and teddy bears, plushies, y'know, THAT kinda stuff. Left the shop, crossed the road and stepped into a kopitiam. A typical, bustling kopitiam with a delicious smell wafting from a corner.
Turns out it was the hokkien mee soup.
mmmmm~
pssst! KL's hokkien mee is the oh oh(black sauce) type right, well here prawn mee is called hokkien mee. I used to get confuse.
Felicia and I chatted, gossiped, laughed out loud, slurped our mee-that was real yummy-, ogle at cute boys xDD and left at 12:30pm.
1 bowl of hokkien mee+soya bean drink+a plate of fries= RM 4.90
~~wheeeeeees, en-ni you would love it here seriously.~~
And... the BEST part was, my mom was okay about it. About me using the 'better to ask for forgiveness than permission' scheme(nyaheeheehs).

FCE was fun today(I'm taking english classes, Elly- a very huggable form 5- bought pizza!! mmmmmmmmm~ I personally think English classes are really relaxing, like Art(not seni, ART xD), helps me release pressure. I brought chipsters and Jesslyn brought chocs, PLUS Gavin didnt come-probably with his gal ;)- so yeah, ladies par-tay. With textbooks. xD

Oh yesh, we talked about couples in class too. Guilty-pleasure. I mean, girls, if a guy-not to mention a really hot one- was waiting for YOU-and YOU only- outside your house or someplace, with a bouquet of flowers, would you seriously NOT go head over heels for him?
Nah. Didn't happen to me. Fat chance as Ron would have said xD Just gossips.

and uhm, i joined the school band.
Percussion x)
yes iamcrazy.

speed up your breathing

2009-02-01T18:39:00.007+08:00

hello hello ;)
Real sorry for not updating.
ohyeah and uh, GHappy Chinese New Year!
chunhuay are sure there is such a word? ghappy LOL sounds like fish.

prepare yourself for a hell lotta random rants.

Yeah I know- and I dread- that the fact that CNY is almost over =(
nevermind, at least I have Eagle Eye and Angus, Thongs, and Perfect Snogging.

Shia LaBeouf. so cute.
*jumps up and down!!*
Surprisingly, ATPS was great. Had me laughing non-stop.
this is for Wingky. Oh and other BritBoys lovers. xD

Robbie and Tom. ;)
yet, I think Dave the Laugh is cuter.
maybe it's just me, but his hair-okayyy, to ME- was appealing. oh-so-adorable.
and nunganunganungas. WTFLMAO.
Plus he's 6'1. hands down swoooon.

seriously, instead of angpaus, I prefer DVDs.
Just like my aunt said: YOU tell your future boyfriend/husband "I don't eat shrimp I want LOBSTERs"
gosh I haven't stopped laughing since then xD

and YES MAN!!
iwanttowatchitsoBADLY.
yes yes, I'm sure he's sick of me ranting about it on the phone.
;D

I have not finished Sir Goh's summary. eek eek eeks.

I just found out that school's marathon is on the 14th of Feb.
gosh it's Valentine's Day and I can't even stay at home and sleep. Also to moan about my single status. ;(
hahas xD

toodles =D

I loved you for so long

2009-01-24T22:58:00.001+08:00

The way we are
The way we were
(It's just a shadow of what's wrong)
The time with you
The time is stirred
(I loved you for so long)
The hearts they turn
They turn away
(She says to go, please don't you cry)
Love lost was found
Night turns to day
-"Time Stands Still" The All-American Rejects

Put Down

2009-01-24T21:53:00.003+08:00

"Will you need me now, you'll find the way somehow
You want it too, I want it too."

This is for him.

You made me smile. You made me laugh.
I wouldn't say you made me cry, that's because I was just crying for you.

You know every single thing about me.
But you didn't know that I was disappointed when you didn't text goodnight. I'd cling on to my handphone, hoping it would buzz. But that didn't happen. Often I'd drift to sleep clutching my phone, missing you.
I don't blame you. I never would. You had fallen asleep. That isn't wrong.

I always hang around my phone now. That's something I never would do if you didn't "happen". "Happen" as in, us. Whenever my phone buzzed, I would hope that when I flip my phone open, it would be from you. You were the most important to me.

You occupied my every thought. I would think: What would he do if he saw me doing this? Would it be okay with him? Would he like this colour on me?
It wasn't a bad thing. I liked it.

But sometimes it got too much. I would suddenly get moody just because I hadn't heard from him. And that was just this morning. He controlled my mood palatte. If he was hurt, the skies from my view would be a dull blue. I knew if I had seen it from another side, I would have seen a sky of palest blue and the rich, orange sun setting. He gotten that position. When I snuck a glance at the cat outside, it was like he smiled at me.

But it's not all about him. I made mistakes. If I didn't felt like it, I wouldn't reply his messages. And he's giving me a taste of that right now. It isn't nice, but I brought this on me. He was always the one who called. Even in the end, he was the one who called to set things straight. He was the one who paid. He gave me credit. And-- Okay, I won't get there. I'm sure I let him down too, as pleasing wasn't really my good points. I hurt him too much it hurts for me to even get to that part. And both times was me. I did it. Like a knife.

Yet still, I find him the greatest guy I know. He understood me. Silences were comfortable with him. There wasn't small-talk, not once. He was sweet, thoughtful, romantic(haha, don't deny that), knows what I want, therefore-awesome(I seriously am picky), the epitome of perfection. And he still is.

I loved that he calls during the day.
I loved his small laugh. And I didn't know what was he laughing about.
I loved that he knew I was sleepy yet I still wanted to talk.
I loved that he sang. To me.
I loved that he liked the songs I like.
I loved that he reads.
I loved that he would go "awwwww..."
I loved that he always thought about me first.
I loved him.

And in my heart, deep down in my heart, I know, I always will.

How can I forget all the sweetest words he said to me? How can I forget he sent the card early? How can I forget how he sang "Dance Inside"? How can forget the way he said "I love you"? How can I ever?

I don't know how. I don't even know whether I want to. I didn't delete his messages. I didn't want to let go what may be the last words he says.

"As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope,
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song."
-"The Last Song" The All-American Rejects

I still hope that one day, I would get to hold his hand, hold him close, and when that day comes, I will never let go.

With you and your worn out jeans

2009-01-10T13:46:00.002+08:00

Hahaha... these few days have been- surreal.
and im loving every minute of it!

Well, so the first-hellish xD- school week is finally OVER. I've concluded that:

1 it sucks being a transfer student really donttrustmegotryitoutyourself- AT THE BEGINNING.

2 it gets better. SERIOUSLY.
if you know a few people, good for ya; but if don't freaking know even ONE-like me, yeah- do not, I repeat, DO NOT go up to BOYS and ask for directions.
Boys will just tease you. (wells, the ones who wear their underwear hanging out ~~and THAT is like, so eww~~ and think they're so cool anyways)

UGH. that is so NOT a way to lure girls.

Don't wear your pants like that unless it's GRAVITY-DEFYING okayyy? cuz it will certainly drop to the ground one day.

back to the post. x)

3 Everyone here is so sui bian. So y'know, easy-going teachers; happy-go-lucky students.
it's a nice environment. The teacher actually said: Ni mei you zhuo wan gong ke bu yong jin(If you didn't finish your schoolwork, it's okay).

Then the siaokia guy behind me: Tian form! (Fill in the form ah!) Laughs.
-merit demerit system. Break the rules, get the form. Slam down in bilik discipline.
Oh but not this teacher-boys fawn over her cuz she's pretty in a sweet way. To me it's rather sickening to have a teacher speak to me as if I'm a 3 year old. x/- she just forgives you and have you hand it in ~~next year~~ tommorow.

4 The food is good. BUT most importantly, CHEAP.
A big, yummy bowl of wanton noodles plus TWO ginormous dumplings.
ahhhhhhhhhhh~
Plus the drinks. ONE tall plastic cup of lycheeeeee- RM 0.50.
Yes, i was shocked but i didnt show it. LOL or more like, i was giving the seller the quizzical brow.

5 the WHOLE freakin school looks THE SAME.
it's like I'm walking around in circles finding the headmaster's office but I'm still see the same dull grey buildings and the same dull grey pigeons. EESH.
Put a little COLOUR in it will ya?!

6 there are NO hotties here, not one, Wingky. you'll seriously get bored so don't come here.
DON'T ask again cuz it will always be the same answer with me.
i have turned a blind eye at them because my heart already is spoken for. x)

7 Girls here have a lifelong knowledge of the male mind. Yes. I shan't elaborate further. xDD

8 All afternoon session guys have to cut "lu jun zhuang". If you don't Sir Goh will grab you by the collar and cut your hair in front of the whole school. Yep.
Sir just went snaaaaaaaaaaaaap-using the usual scissors- and the poor guy's hair looked like a neatly cut garden lawn.

Whew, what a sight!

9 I think I'm the only girl in the afternoon session who doesn't have a fringe. Hahaha, yeah I didnt know that fringe was part of the school rules. xD Nike bottle too! Squirt squirt splash!

10 I'm still the same June y'all know. Just, quieter in school. (No you can't feel that through the phone cuz I'm all loud when YOU-yes YOU- call x) But yeah I still burst out laughing suddenly when the class is- oh shit- HELL QUIET. ah, bad habit. xDD

Ooh 10. So you guys should probably get a glimpse of my life right know.
It's gonna get better. ;D

But it's empty

2009-01-07T23:31:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I wonder whether it was worth it.
Whether it was worth it when I made them laugh, helped them, thanked them, or just befriend them.

I wonder really, does anyone realise I'm not there.

Was I just a wallflower, who annoyed people and was not worth remembering?
Or should I just accept the fact that friends don't exist?

"Out of sight, out of mind."
She said that. Makes sense.

Maybe they are the ones not worth remembering. Maybe friends are just there to hide the lonely truth.

My mind does wander far. It tells me to go on on my life right now, forget all of them since I'm forgotten, just get a grip. It's a cruel world, get over it.

But that's just the emo me.

I appreciate. I'm happy I existed in their life, made them smile and laugh.
I feel good when my friends laugh at my ~~sick~~ jokes. ;)
And I KNOW, deep down, ok like REAL deep down, they love me. They were my friends and still are.
Just because they are not here, doesn't mean that they forgotten me.
Just because I can't see them daily, it doesn't mean that they aren't my friends anymore.

Thanks for making my only year at a school I loved really much, Catholic High, so memorable. Everyone.
My teachers, the classrooms, my desk and chair(that was FOREVER wobbly), exam seating... my beloved friends I treasure so deeply... the CANTEEEEEN!!!... the stairs we had to climb EVERY SINGLE DAY*pant*...AJKs of the class x)... imissyou.
And thankyou.

Just so you know, I moved.
I'm currently studying at SMJK Chung Ling Butterworth. Penang.
Don't ask why. Thanks.

Well I miss you too

2009-01-04T15:34:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Justin! ;D

-i know it's belated-so sorry!!- but i didn't want to ruin the sentence by adding a "belated" in there. x)

Study hard xD

"I know it’s kinda late
But Happy Birthday"
Happy Birthday- The Click Five

I need you just to breathe

2008-12-30T18:55:00.002+08:00

Ah shit my mp4 is busted.
RM 500 fly awayyyy T.T

Ok so I watched Madagascar 2 and Mom at 16(Hallmark) yesterday.
Mads was better than I expected.
Ahaha, I still can remember the look on Alex and Marty's faces when Melman announced that he was in love with Gloria. Then adds: I mean, I love you like I love the beach, or a book, or the beach.
Hilarious, I tell you.
Plus the "Moto Moto" part.
"Name so nice you say it twice."
That hippo is obnoxious, seriously.

Private(the penguin with the yong sui face x)"In case of a loss of oxygen, please place your masks over your faces to hide your terrified expressions from the other passengers."

"I broke your ipod." xD

Oh, he sms'd me saying "Lol ur always watching movies."
Haha, yeah I sure do.
Movies and music- the bomb.

I've been watching a hell lotta Hannah Montana, Wizards of Waverly Place, Suite Life of Zack and Cody, Cory in The House... Mr Bean animated or not...
because-there is an Astro here that my cousins worship.

Lame. I tell you. LAME.

I don't care whether you're a straight-A student or a straight-D student, when you don't have a book to read(As) nor a good server(Ds), your brains commands your eyes to glue to the stupid box.

"That girl is crying like we're on Oprah."
Quote Enchanted.
My mom, is addicted to that movie. Woah.

Oprah is a nice show. I like the way she talks so confidently like she's talking to her dog-here I go again- on TV.
Not to mention the big bucks she receives. x)

Mom at 16 is really a touching, heartwarming movie. It tells the story of a sixteen year old girl who got pregnant and her life after that. Her dealing with the baby, her family, and peers is something real. Not those fakey stuff on those Taiwanese dramas. eeks.
Sorry if I humiliated those taiwanese drama fans. Sorry!

Wells I gotta go. Dinner calls!

Mistletoe...

2008-12-28T18:30:00.003+08:00

omgosh i love him.
SO MUCHEEE~

He makes me happy;
He sings so beautifully;
He laughs so genuinely;
He speaks as if reciting a poem;
He apologises profusely x);
He believes in me;
He sees what's inside me;
He loves me.

kissing you under the mistletoe...

Christmas Eve Picnic

2008-12-26T21:32:00.009+08:00

My christmas eve was spent doing:

#1 Staring at my phone.
-ah shit it's gonna become a habit.

#2 Daydreaming. Honestly he tempts me too. x)
~~lalalas~~~

#3 A picnic-even though the always-seen-in-movies red tartan mat is exempted- at Youth Park. With my oh-so-adorable-cut-that-shit-no-they're-not cousins.
-Oh yeah, when my cousins saw me after the haircut, they were like: "Who the hell ARE you?"
Ah I would've dearly replied:"Oh im santa claus girl version/santarina. You've all been naughty kids this year, so- NO PRESSIES!"
hah, of course I didn't. I'm not THAT evil.

Back to picnic with the non-existent red tartan mat. x)

There was a pool and-as usual- the kids went frenzy over it.
Stripped and splash! they jumped in.
Haha, it's nice to be a kid. You can do crazy stuff and people will say: "Aww, he's just a kid." No such luck for us teenagers. They'll say: " It's the hormones."

eeks. hormones. puh-lease. it's the PRESSURE.

but I'm lucky that my mom does exempt me from the pressure category. x)
thanks MOM.

supermodel-wanna-be. swimsuit edition.
Hahas.

Hawaiian Four-O.
Haha, that song which appeared in Shrek2 is stuck in my mind.
Tatatatataaaa tatatata~

Poolside cuties.
LOL

My sister and I. Both of us got haircuts. Apparently my mom raved about short hairdos.

Curry chicken. Sa-wooooooooon.

Oh my cousin aka supermodel took this photo. And she's only four! Amateur or what? xD

I'll edit it-cuz there are still a few pictures- soon.
Night! Sweet dreams~ ;D

Last Christmas I gave you my heart...

2008-12-25T23:02:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas!

Happy birthday Jesus! ;D

Thanks to everyone that made my year 2008 so special... I really enjoyed it.
Honestly flipping through the memories we shared in this wonderful year-that's sadly about to end- really does make me realise how lucky, how blessed I am.

And, I really appreciate it.

Thank you.

Thanks to my parents who brought me up-minus the ever-scary cane!- these long, hard 13 years!
Thanks to him- he made this a ~~night~~ christmas to remember.
Haha, how cheesy can I get?
Don't forget my ever-supportive, ever-siaokia haha- BESTIES!!!
Hasta La Vista!!! Muaksss!
Oh and my dearest friends and the readers of this blog- I could never fill complete without ya'll!
Thanks ya.

PS Also a heartfelt thank you to auntie Mei Yi who did my hair. Plus her two siao siao helpers! LOL

See?

2008-12-23T21:58:00.005+08:00

New hairdo!
Don't ask why I cut it THIS short, I just had too.
-if you know how my brain goes temporary OFF, and my butt takes over, then you'll understand.

See, I'm spontaneous.
Hahaha, ignore me and do comment ya!

Taggeroo Atariah

2008-12-22T19:14:00.004+08:00

I will admit that I was bored so I picked this off Facebook and started doing the tag.
~~plus chicher yunish deserted me uwaah.~~ LOL
It's had me laughing at the first question. Haha~

- Pick a friend, any friend come on, you know you wanna pick Atariah, and choose the correct answer don't change your undies answer eventhough it's embarassing, and fill it in the blanks in the message at the bottom. Tag them. See what they say. It's funny! it's hilarious.

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White – I’m joining the Convent
Black - I dislike your eyelashes
Green - Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're mean
Other - I'm in love with your cat

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February - Last year when you peed your pants
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When you smacked my ass
August - When I saw the purple monkey
September - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
October - When I quoted Forest Gump
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Lasagna- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Fish - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put whipped cream on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the Pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
Green – My prized statue of Michael Jackson in the nude
Other - The elephant in the corner

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs; Man
O.C.; Emotional
One Tree Hill; Open
Heroes; Frostbitten
Lost; High
House; Sly
Simpsons; Cowardly
The news; Scarred
Idol; Masochistic
Family Guy; Senile
Top Model; Middle-class
Annat; Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Silly - That there is no solution to you being a dumbkid
Other - That your driving sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ring
Yellow - Your love letters to me
Red - Your Elton John poster
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from Vegas
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your car

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
C/D - The oil tank from your car
E/F - Your neighbour’s dog
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of that blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your glass eye
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
C/D - Never will forget that night
E/F - Always wanted to break your legs
G/H – Hate your cooking
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Will tell the authorities that you did not steal that whale in the back yard
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Was interviewed about the car you stole
Q/R - Always will remember the pep talks
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Haven’t showered in a month
Y/Z – Am better off without you

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship is ruined
Beer – you should stop picking your nose
Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
Soda – I will haunt you when I’m incarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Wine – Thanks for the Cocaine
Cider – I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war
Mineral water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
Other – I'm scratching my ass as you read this

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand – Warm tingly sensations
Australia - Best of luck on the sex-change
England - Good luck in jail
Spain - Go drown yourself
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don’t hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Greetings to your frog Leonard
USA - Your everlasting enemy
Egypt – Kiss my butt
France – With tears of sadness

Dear Atariah,

I don't really know how to tell you this, but [I dislike your eyelashes],
I think I realized it when [When you put cuffs on me] [Outside of your office], and you [Ignored] [My boyfriend]. I'm sure you're [Frostbitten] enough to understand that [That I get turned on by garbage men]. I'm returning your [The couch cushions] to you, but I'll keep [The results of that blood-sample] as a memory. You should also know that I [Haven’t showered in a month] and [You should get that embarrassing rash checked].

[Your everlasting enemy],

June.

Chuo Tang Yuan

2008-12-20T22:08:00.014+08:00

yay~ Dong Zhi is here!
Everybody grows a year old!
-loki-sama is exempted. LOL

~~human pollution. has affected my brother deeply. LOL~~
I like this quirky photo.

Making the dough while kiddies gathered around you laughing is lovely.

Pinky swirl.
~~-does Renie like pink? Haha.~~

Colourful. Happy.

random pic:

Dinner of the day. "Kali hu"-translate: fish curry.
The reason I call my grandma great-great-great-freakin-great-grandaughter of Dae Jeung Gem.
-I'm picking up hokkien and cantonese haha.

Laugh along.

Cheeseee! Or more likely, TANG YUEEEEN!
haha.

Full CONCENTRATION.
~~something I seriously don't possess.~~

RAWR! powder hands whoop.

The MOMS.
Do not underestimate them.

Ooh! He proposed! *shows off ring*

Tada~ the end.

Ranting Again

2008-12-16T12:29:00.004+08:00

I just finished reading Meg's newest post. I really like her witty, funny way of writing, so totally envy her la.

Oh yeah and Jean, if you're reading this, two of my friends have already complimented you on Hell no Romeo&Hatebug. Go on song-editing! x)

Bakua- 2 pieces left. EEEK! I'm gonna sneak in and grab them and hurry into the bathroom. Then chompchomp it.
*evil laugh*

Ok so because my handphone is not gonna buzz until Christmas-YES approx 9 days!-, I'm starting to go crazy.

Well, not that slitwristchopheadhangme crazy, more like kinda the urge to do stupid stuff when my nose isn't in a maths workbook.

Like plotting to kidnap the bakua.
Yell along with WeTheKings on Check Yes Juliet-which made my uncle and auntie said that's why I haven't befriended anyone in Penang LOL-so freakin damn LOUDLY.
Staring at my phone. ~~like that would make it ring!~~
Laugh kisiao-ishly when watching Hannah Montana.
~~Become Euniceee's lover xDD.~~

My brother is a HouseBunny lmao. The young, local, male type.

Curly Rants

2008-12-15T22:26:00.005+08:00

The bakua is disappearing. FAST!

Ahhh... my mom bought it like, uh, last Thursday and the kids are devouring it!
Leave some for me... ='(

Haha. The kids/cousins are noisy. Loud. Scary.
But, I don't know why, or how exactly, I warmed up to them.

There's Ann Ann who constantly comes for a cuddle.
Hung Hung with his sick jokes. Yes, sick jokes. And he's only 7.
~~Mom? Does this run in the family? xD~~
Eugene and Hao Jen who laugh along hysterically.
Tian Tian and her "Wo zhuo Mami"-translate: I wanna be the mother- cartoony voice.
Yeah, she has a doll-like voice. High pitched.
Ah Di(Alson) with his I'm-gonna-be-hot-someday-don't-underestimate-me face and giggles when I tickle him.

Maybe Penang does that to people.

You CANNOT eat alone here. It's either you with your folks or a friendly person.
When you go out to those hawker places for dinner or char chan teng for breakfast, you can't find a table, penangites will ask you to join them.
Seriously. Friendliness is wow. It makes you feel something. A little warm flame.
Oh, and the food is heavenly. Maybe Penang caters for Heaven.
Hahaha, you never know.
~~I seem to say that a lot these days.~~

I like the way my hair curls.

Chainmails x(

2008-12-15T21:36:00.003+08:00

I hate chainmails.
Seriously, they ANNOY THE HELL OUTTA ME.

I mean:

Now that you have read this letter, you MUST send it
to at least 10 people in 10 minutes.
1 person~you will die at an early age
2 people~you will die in 10 years
3 people~you will die in 15 years
4-9 people~you will die in 20 years
That depends on fate. It does NOT depend on a stupid chainmail, idiot.

10 people~your crush will tell you that you're cute
11-15 people~your crush will ask you out
16-25 people~your crush will kiss you
26+ people~your crush will do all of the above and you will get the job that you want within the next 10 years!!
Huh. Well, I'm pretty sure my crush will tell me I'm cute-ok, fine. Maybe in a messy way but still, he will-, will ask me out, will kiss me and blahs even though I so DON'T forward this chainmail.
Oh, and if he doesn't ask me out or kiss me or blah, I WILL.
By the way, my dream job awaits me.

So shut up.

PS i'm not blaming the one who sent me this, as she happens to be a very nice girl- who certainly will get her kiss ;D- I really like, it's just the content of the mail offends me.

Messed Up but still

2008-12-14T19:23:00.002+08:00

Ahh... I'm sorry I've been gone for these few days.
Honestly, my life has become very hectic.
Sometimes I can't even catch up with it.
~~And I shall NOT blame my beauty sleep-which is like, um, 10 hours? Hah!-because it is very important.~~

Well, I messed up a few-okay, maybe NOT a few- things.
For that I apologise-even though you don't wanna hear it- really.
Umm. Sorry?
You never said that you forgived me. ~~Or maybe you don't forgive me.~~

But, hey, I'm sure they will all work out.
~~Even though, hah, I don't have patience really.~~

Oh yeah, I wanna thank En-Ni!!!!and her parents-not to mention um, Shao Ming who like, haha, ~~watched~~ endured Heroes 2 with me- for letting me enjoy a 5 star sleepover!!

Oh and Renie who constantly borrowed me her earphones that cost RM 120 and her new wardrobe that made En-Ni and I wave goodbye to tomboy Zero-shi, thanks! Yeah, and postlaju me Heroes 3! Hahaha!

I love you guys!

Yes, Sab! Your turn! I misssss you! Let me see your photos in US! Any hottie pics? xD

EUNICEEE! HAMDAIII! heartsss <3

Gotta go! Tesco calls!